The Decisions We Make

IzayaXReaderXShizuo

Chapter 2: I won't Black Out!

Screaming, cursing, and throwing of objects were what your ears were used to these past few days. Crying was also another thing both your ears and eyes were growing tired of. You have tried to be mature about the situation and talk with your ex boyfriend, Nobuso. He became defensive and tried to cover up what he has been doing without your knowledge. When he finally realized that he was caught, he tried to turn it against you, as if it was your fault the relationship failed.

You were so angry and frustrated with his excuses! You knew that you weren't going back to him, but you wanted to at least know why he did it. The answers he gave you were not what you were expecting, making you wish you never asked. The reason why you were still trying to talk to him was because of the apartment issue.

Who was going to be the one moving out? Not only that, but who will pay for the upcoming rent? You usually split the bill, but now that you two have separated, someone was going to have to suffer. You tried to be civil and suggest that both of you give the rent money before the due date. Nobuso was unreasonable, trying to avoid the situation. You knew that he was attempting to evade in contributing his allowance.

Nobuso has been staying at his friend's place since last night, the male also ignoring all your calls, making it difficult to fix the apartment issue. Honestly, you just wanted to get this over with and move on! You needed to know who was going to leave the apartment. Getting a new apartment took time and if you were the one who was going to have to leave, then you needed to start looking for a new place.

'Ugh! This shit is just so fucked up!' You thought angrily as you plopped on the bed in the guest room, having migrated there since Izaya told you about your cheating, stupid boyfriend. You buried your face in your pillow, sniffing softly. No matter how many times you ranted to your friends or how many people you vented to, it still hurt and you were so confused!

Im here, soba ni iru kara
Call me, boku ga iru kara
Trust me, mou nani mou osorenaide
My dear, mienai itou de
Trust me, tsunagatte iru kara
Tada kanjitte iite kono nukumori [1]

Your ringtone interrupted your slight moping, a hand reaching out on the night stand to see who was calling you. It was one of your friends who has been checking up on you.

"Moshi, moshi?"

"____(Y/N)-chan! How you doing?"

"I don't know...I'm all right, I guess? Just....ughhhhhh!" You couldn't even describe it to him!

"Aw, honey, I know. I'm really sorry," your friend responded, then there was a small pause, "get your ass ready."

"Eh?"

"Girl, I said get ready! We are going out tonight! Me and the girls are coming over and we're helping you get out of the apartment! It is time that you needed to have some fun!" He didn't even let you finish, his tone of voice clearly stating that whether you wanted to or not, you were going to be forced out of that apartment. You let out a small sigh, happy that your friends were concerned for your well being. But wait...your friend didn't even tell you WHERE you were going! How the hell should you dress for this night out?! ><

A few hours later, the girls came as they planned, all of you lounging in the living room. You finally were able to dress appropriately for the night after having asked where they planned to take you.

"We are going to forget about everything tonight and just enjoy! Tonight, we celebrate a new, single you! Fuck your ex! It is time for you to just do you! You've suffered enough and it is time to be happy!" Your friend who started this entire thing opened a bottle of champagne to make this celebration official.

"Makoto-kun...everyone..thank you!" You gave your flamboyant guy friend a hug and the rest of your girl friends joined in. After finishing the champagne, one of your girl friends' boyfriend drove up to a decent sized building with various neon lights decorating the entrance. There was a huge line, but Makoto reassured you that none of you would be waiting long. Apparently, he had connections with the owner of the place so you and the girls got in easily.

The club/bar was crowded yet lively. People were dancing to the up beat tempo of the songs the DJ was playing and the strobe lights were giving the illusion of everything moving out of it's place. The bar was very busy and only a few people were working that night. You blinked, recognizing a particular blonde.

"Shizu-kun!!" You shouted out his name, but it was being dominated by the music. You went to the bar, making yourself known to the strongest man in Ikebukuro.

"Shizu-kun! Konbawa!"

"____(Y/N)-chan!?" Shizuo was not expecting you to show up at his part time job. He was still a body guard to Tom, but he used bar tending as another way to earn extra cash.

"How've you been?"

"I'm fine. I haven't seen you in a while. How are things with you?"

"Well, me and-"

"Excuse me! Can I have two Coronas?" Shizuo's attention turned to a customer, the male giving you a slight apologetic look as he attended to him first. You understood, waiting for him to finish serving the beer requesting man. Shizuo hasn't seen you for quite some time, your work schedules conflicting with one another, preventing you two from hanging out.

"So, how's work?" you inquired when he returned to you.

"Eh," Shizuo shrugged his shoulder, not giving any positive or negative response, "so, any particular reason why you're here?"

The club/bar scene wasn't a place you frequented often, but you only went to places like those if there was a special occasion, such as birthdays. You thought about your reason being here and a small frown planted itself on your lips, being reminded of the stressful life you would have to go back to after tonight. You might have fun for the rest of the evening, but it wasn't going to solve what was happening with you and Nobuso. You were grateful that the girls took you here, but what about your apartment issue?

Almost as if sensing your distress, Makoto was instantly by your side, an arm around your shoulders.

"My dear, it has been 20 minutes since we've been here. You need to start showing off them dance moves!" He winked playfully and had a slightly surprised look when he saw Shizuo.

"Oh! Shizu-kun! I didn't know you work here now! Anyway, I'm going to steal my lovely ___(Y/N)-chan, but before we go, 2 shots of Patron, please!"

Shizuo wondered why you suddenly had a sad look on your face when he asked what brought you to his work place. He decided not to pry, going to fulfill Makoto's orders. He placed the two shot glasses in front of you, Makoto going to pay for you both. Shizuo shook his head, indicating that it was on him.

"Go and have some fun. We'll talk later." Shizuo gave you a small smile after you thanked him. He watched you and Makoto mesh within the crowd, focusing on serving the rest of the clients surrounding the bar area.

He was really content to finally have seen you after a couple of months. He's seen Izaya more during those times and he wasn't happy with that at all. His thoughts wandered off to you, the girl who he never and probably never will get the courage to confess to. He met you in junior high and the two of you have been going to the same schools since then. His feelings began in high school, but he figured it was just a crush, something that would disappear by a week or two. Instead, they grew stronger and deeper. Shizuo knew you did not deserve an angry monster so he locked away his feelings. He made sure to not give you or other people any hint of his secret, not wanting it to be used against him. He especially did not want Izaya to find out.

As the hours passed by, more and more people congested his station. Shizuo was busy receiving and serving orders, working quickly in order to please the customers. He did hate the overwhelming feeling he got when it became active, but these types of night, he always went home with his pockets full. [2]

"Ohhh!" He heard a group of people say as a crowd began to form a circle.

"Heiwajima! Mind checkin' it out?" His manager was patrolling the bar, checking up on his employees. His manager knew of Shizuo's strength and usually sent him to disperse any potential fights. Shizuo walked towards the crowd, not expecting to see you and a male.

"Oi. What's going on here?" Shizuo asked, stepping in between the two.

"That guy groped my ass! And he spilled his beer all over my dress!"

"I was just trying to have a little fun! Besides, with you dressed like that, you definitely wanted it!" The stranger retorted.

"Excuse me? It doesn't matter how I'm dressed! Even if I was walking around naked, it still gives you no reason to touch me without permission!"

"Yeah, well, you know what? You're just a stupid whore anyway!"

"Enough! You'll both get kicked out if you don't stop. I'm sorry, ___(y/n), but that's the policy." Shizuo didn't want to ruin your fun, but it was true. It was policy that if someone or a group of people were causing disruption, they were immediately dismissed from the club.

"It's all right, I understand."

"Whoa! You're gonna kick me out just because I'm trying to have some fun here? Man, fuck you!" Obviously this man was too inebriated to realize that he was cursing at the great Heiwajima, Shizuo.

"Oh? Fuck me, you say?" Shizuo's eye twitched.

"Yeah! That's what I said! You deaf, you fool?!"

"Stop insulting him!" You stepped up beside your blonde friend.

"I got this." Shizuo extended an arm to stop you from moving any forward.

"You think you can take me? C'mon, fool! Let's go!" The hyped up boy replied, his body moving in a boxer stance. "Man, I'm sick of you! I'ma take you out!"

The groper rushed up to Shizuo, hitting him hard in the abdomen.

"Shizu-kun!" Your eyes widened at the sudden assault. Shizuo glared down at the shorter male, his punch having no impression on him. Shizuo retracted his arm and released it, his fist making contact with the stranger's face, sending him flying towards the wall. The bouncers of the club came to get rid of the disturbance a few moments later, you and your friends surrounding Shizuo.

"Are you okay?" you asked and he gave you a nod, fixing the front of his uniform.

"Heiwajima! You all right?" His boss went to assess if there were any obvious wounds on his employee.

"Yeah, I'm good." Your secret admirer went back to his station, the quarrel before having no significance to him. Of course, he was irritated that the pervert insulted you, but he knew if he fully lost it, he would lose his job and he didn't want to scare you. There were times when you'd witness his belligerent side and only when you gave that worried and fearful look stopped him. The first few times it did frighten you, but you eventually became used to his behavior. He would never be enraged at you nor could he ever hurt you so maybe that's why you didn't see a reason to run away. Besides, he's expressed to you how much he hated violence and you believed that he was a good man. You only worried for his physical being whenever he let loose. How could his body stand that much pain?

"I'm sorry for causing trouble." You went up to Shizuo, an apologetic look on your cute face.

"It's all right. It wasn't your fault. You did the right thing. If you don't like something that someone's doing, don't keep quiet." He knew how much of a generous person you were and he hated to see you get taken advantage of.

"Hai!"

"Let's celebrate now that the creeper is gone!" Makoto and the girls appeared around you, requesting Shizuo for various alcoholic beverages.

The bar was the first section of the club to close when the entire place was beginning to wrap up. Shizuo was cleaning a few shot glasses, putting them in their proper cabinet.

"Shizuo, my dear! Can we get a glass of water, please?" He heard Makoto's voice, turning to see you, seated on the stool while your friend supported you. Your face was flushed and a big, happy smile was planted on your face.

"Shizu-kuuun!" You giggled as the blonde directed a question towards the friendly male.

"How much did she have?"

"A lot. I mean, I'm just glad she isn't throwing up like Mari-chan and Tooko-chan! I think we're gonna head home now, but she's going to need to stay with someone." Makoto implied that it should be Shizuo's home you should stay at.

"What's wrong with her apartment?" Shizuo had no complaints about letting you sleepover, but wasn't your boyfriend going to help you? He didn't think that Nobuso would be too pleased with you sleeping over at his place. Nobuso knew you two were close friends, but still.

"Right. About that. Ummmm.....I don't know if I should tell you the story, but just ask her tomorrow about it. I'd rather her not be in that apartment at the moment....sooo, if you could please? I would love to take her home with me, but I actually have my cousin and brother sleeping over so I have no room and as you can see, the other girls are busy helping Mari-chan and Tooko-chan."

"Yeah. I'll take her, but my shift isn't over yet, so I guess just leave her sitting there while I try to finish up."

"It's all right, Heiwajima. You can go ahead first. The bar is basically clean and you should go rest up after that punch you took." His manager gently placed a hand on his shoulder, overhearing the conversation.

"Go on, take care of her." The boss gave him a small smile, nodding to you as Shizuo gave him a grateful nod. The tall male walked over to you, lifting you up in his arms with no effort. Shizuo had to be smart in handling you, because if he held you improperly, your bottom would be flashing the entire world.

"Shizu-kuuun, where are we going?" You had one arm over his shoulders as your face nuzzled against his neck. Your other arm was close to your body, holding your clutch purse tightly to prevent your important items from becoming lost.

"Back to my place." A tiny redness erupted on his face, not expecting you to become slightly affectionate.

"I'm hungryyy, can we eatt?"

"I'll make you something. All the stores are closed right now."

"Aw, okay. Well, you don't haveee to," You continued to hold onto him tightly, "you smell reallllly good, Shizu-kun. Ne, I don't have any spare clothes....can I borrow yoursss?"

You continued talking randomly to Shizuo, the male responding back as he walked to his home. His apartment wasn't far from the club so there was no need for him to bring his car.
Once inside, he gently set you on your feet, helping you take off your high heels.

"What would you like to eat?" Shizuo asked, helping you into the kitchen. You had requested ramen, a food that you enjoyed eating even when sober. Shizuo made you drink adequate amounts of water to lessen the severity of your hangover tomorrow. He noticed that you were quiet, the brown eyed male [3] discovering your head buried in your arms on the table. He let out a small sigh, bringing you back into his hold and permitting you to use his room for the night.

"Where we going?" You stirred in your sleep when you felt your body being moved.

"I'm putting you to bed. You can stay in my room."

"And where are you gonna sleep?"

"Probably in the living room. Don't worry about it. Just get some rest."

"Haiii!" You felt your body being set down on the soft mattress, sitting on your knees as you looked up at the bartender.

"You know, Shizu-kuun...y-you're a good person!" You pointed out, still in your drunken state. At least you weren't a violent drunk.

"Yeah, yeah." Shizuo went to look for an extra pair of shorts and shirt for you to change to, setting them by your legs.

"Arigato!" You started to unzip your dress, Shizuo immediately turning around.

"I'm still here! Wait till I leave to change!"

"It's okaay! I trust you, Shizu-kuun! Unlike stupid Nobuso!"

"Nobuso? What about him?" He remembered Makoto's words in the club, figuring out that you and Nobuso had an argument. But just how bad was the argument that Makoto didn't want you staying at the apartment?

"He's just an idiot! A jerk! A douchebag! Every word in the dictionary that describes an asshole! And Izaya-kun, too! He...he's just....well, not an asshole, but he wasn't very nice!"

"Izaya? What did he do?" He quickly turned back to you, concerned about what Izaya did to you. If that bastard did anything to hurt you...he would make sure that information broker will forever be dependent on a mechanical ventilator. Your vision was fading in and out, your body unable to function anymore without sleep.

"Oi, ___(y/n). What did Izaya do?" Shizuo moved closer to you, watching you struggle in staying awake. You weren't processing what Shizuo was saying, the only thing registering in your mind was how handsome your good friend was up close. You placed a hand over your mouth, yawning as you let out a little giggle.

"Oyasumiiii, Shizu-kuuun." You leaned up, kissing his lips as the bodyguard's eyes expanded from shock. Another feminine chuckle left your lips as your body hit the bed. You snuggled into one of his pillows, hugging the soft material to you. It was starting to hit him that you kissed him, Shizuo frozen in his spot while he was replaying the small incident over and over. Did that really just happen!? His eyes scanned your small frame, starting with your face and downwards. He had to stop himself, seeing your exposed legs, trying to contain that excitement below his abdomen. [4] He left the room in a hurried state, his long legs getting him out of the room within three steps. His heart was beating fast, his stomach was tightening, and feelings of confusion were bothering his brain. He accidentally pulled the door too hard, the knob now in his hand. Damn, he was going to have to fix that later. Shizuo reflected on your words, recalling you mentioning Izaya's name.

'Izayaaa! When I find you..!' Shizuo mentally threatened him as he got himself situated on the couch. He was going to need to be his best for Izaya's beating tomorrow.

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[1] Guess what song it is! You know you'd want that ringtone, too
[2] Bartenders get a lot of cash, I heard

[3] His eyes are brown, right? O_o I've been trying to find up close images of him on google and I found a couple and they look brown. If I'm wrong, please correct me lol

[4] If you know what I mean